stranger i met

Well…. I created my blog with the intension of writing a whole lot cause I enjoy writing, but when I actually reached the stage where iam supposed to post material into the blog I realized I had nothing to post.
All those thoughts that run in my mind when I am alone, those moments that I pen down, my old memories, my conversations with him, my love for him, my craving for him…… everything seems to have died….. swept away by time and tide. I’ve lost my innocence, I’ve lost the child within me… there was a time when I never hesitated to be myself. I loved myself, I spoilt myself ,I enjoyed being me, I enjoyed being loved for being me. But as life unfolds itself everything begins to take its own path…. Reality hit me so hard that I could nt deal with it. I was losing myself, the real me, I couldn’t stand up for myself, I could nt stand up for what I believed in…. life forced me to succumb to its ways. I did nt raise my voice, I could nt feel anymore, I lost old friends, I lost their trust, but made new ones as if it were a big compensation. The only time I was real, the only time I was truly myself was the time I spent with myself and my one true friend whom I have nt thankfully lost on this journey.
Until a few days back she was the only one who knew me. I ve always been there for her and she s always been there for me apart from that, with everyone else it was a fake life in an absolutely fake world. Who really cares about another person? Every other person hates the other…. I forgot to love… I forgot about him…. And everything that I should be happy about.
Now iam back to being myself again, all it took was a few long conversations over 3 days with a stranger(not anymore). I opened up to him like I have never before… told him things I would never have told anybody. Knowingly or unknowingly he has influenced my thoughts more I than I can explain and more than he can ever imagine. He s that one person who s a turning point in my life and I’ll never stop being grateful to him for this. He knows iam talking about him and I hope he will read this sometime….. my very first blog is dedicated to you. You helped me rediscover myself….. you respected me for what I am, I have immense respect for you and I hope all the happiness in the world belongs to you…… our friendship will never die… so long as you r there I’ll keep smiling and being myself… thanks a lot!